Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Important lesson

Somebody has said it rightly – Life always teaches you the lessons that you never want to learn. I have always been a short tempered person since my childhood. If something was not going my way, I would force it to move my way and that is what I have been doing since starting. I would fight, shout or use my diplomatic ways to achieve what I wanted. But never would I sit and talk to amend the situation in my favor. Never would I solve anything peacefully because I always wanted to finish off the things fast and if it was not happening peacefully then I would take the other way to do it.

So, somebody up there thought of giving me a challenge. He created situations in such a tactical way where I have to bear my anger and still talk nicely. I have been pleading to my Project Manager to relieve me for last more than 3 weeks and he has been consistently denying my plea. It seems like he is testing my limits. And once in a while, I lose control and say something that makes the matter worse. And the challenge becomes tougher. I never thought that I would end up with a stubborn Manager who would test my all limits, so I never solved any problem peacefully. If I had done that, I would have been handling this one with ease.

In any case, I have to solve it peacefully this time and this is what the motive behind this challenge is. Now I really feel sorry for all who suffered because of me and because of my rough behavior.

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Boring life

Life is becoming boring day by day. Nowadays I don’t do anything, which I enjoy doing. My daily routine has become robotlike. Get up at 8 or 9 in the morning, skip my breakfast generally; rush for the office, sit there idle for whole day or do some trivial job, which any moron can do; come back by 7 or 8 in the evening and then again do some trivial things before going to bed. I never expected that I would get bored out of this job life so early. So many things cross my mind everyday. And I see myself fit in all the other jobs except the one I am doing. May be, I am overreacting or may be I am expecting more from my life but I am not enjoying it. Sometimes, it feels like a call from the blue to think over my life and what I want from it.

Time is like sand in your fist. You can’t control its flow after a limit and this is what is happening with me. Time is running out of my hand and I am not able to take a decision for my life. Anyway, this write up is like a kind of introspection. After a long time, I talked to myself and I am feeling better now. Thanks to Google!